تحكي هذه الأبيات عن الإساءة في العلاقة الأسرية وكيف أنّ الخبث في التحقير المستمر للآخر يؤثر نفسياً في المرأة ويحطّم معنوياتها. سنون تخطف من عمرها كي تتعافى وتستعيد قوّتها وتحسّ بقيمة ذاتها
“سنونٌ وانعدام الثقة يراودني عن نفسي”
Yesterday I committed yet another sin.
I shopped in Marks and Spencer.
The pork chops or maybe mince
what do I get? better to give a
choice.
Either could be seen to be wrong.
Or maybe it’s a good day and there
will be no jibe.
Another sin is to be intelligent
to know something that he does not.
I was supposed to be a ‘bimbo’
a name I was frequently called.
Apparently watching television
was an act of idiocy only fit for
an inferior woman like me.
Then I took a chance to study.
Allowed this indulgence I
made a big mistake, I did well,
I passed all my exams and earned
respect from my teachers.
I was now the enemy to be
controlled. Harsh whispers
in my ear telling me to mind
my step. Someone is watching
you, don t show yourself up.
My thoughts were unacknowledged;
someone else had that good idea.
Ultimate threat; if you leave me
I’ll take your precious child.
I believed what he said.
It lasts for years the self-doubt.
Doesn’t matter what you achieve.
The nagging voice is in your head
until you smash the poison thread.
And find the girl you once were,
proud to be your parents’ child,
enough it is to be here.
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